December 2009
12 posts
I have been going threw a really hard time lately....
I knew it would be hard, i didn’t think it would be this hard though. Being with her without holder her is fucked. But i have to deal with it.
I really don’t see the point why i try so hard. I always just end up getting hurt. I’m over this feeling. i really loved her, she means the world to me. I put her before everything in my life including me. I almost lost all my mates and my fasmily, because i wanted to be with her. I just don’t know what to do. Why did she have to do this.
I wish..
I could do someting to help her. To be there to hold her when she needs someone. I wish i could fix everything so she is always happy. I wish she would talk to me about her problems so i could atleast try and help her. I feel so helpless and like a bad boyfriend because when she is upset she doesn’t come to me to make her feel better, its like i can’t make her happy. I just want her to...
honestly
breakingsunshine:
seriously considering leaving for a few days. just getting away. but not telling my parents where. i feel like such a burdon. i dont feel good enough for them. im a failure. fuck ive felt horrible tonight. i just want to leave this place and leave them. i need them too much and all i do is let them down. i really hate myself so fucking much. youve got no idea
Babe...
February - A Thorn For Every Heart.
My country, shrinking in the distance (Every time I leave it’s not the time to cry) I’m leaving but I’ll return (did you think before we got it?) Every time you breathe, I hope you think of me Those are the words you told me, told me One question why I have to leave (I think it’s time to leave) One reason, only for a dream (I think of what I’ll see) This moment feels...
You're The One
Life’s a circle and it spins me around. A broken record always making the same sound. Target time I get my hopes up just to find I only get let down. Like a season that refuses to change. A stubborn winter growing colder every day. Give me something that can warm me up again. I swear to let it in. You’re my something. You are my everything. You’re the one that makes me feel...
Who Would...
Who would you turn to if you were losing everyone you ever got close to? When you don’t even know who you can trust anymore. When your best friends don’t even want to hang with you. What can you do when nothing plans out? When nothing makes you happy apart from that special girl? How are you ment to be happy when you have no one? I hope no one has to ever feel like this. Its the worst...
things i want to learn
breakingsunshine:
-to love myself/who i am -to speak french -to be motivated -to look good without make up -to roll smokes really well -to manage my money -to be around people more often without feeling the urge to shove a sharp object into their eye
it would be nice to learn to do these things by the end of the year.
You do look good without make up, your beautiful all the time.